All I seek in my life from today onwards is a lot of love to come my way. Someone true, loyal, honest, respectful and kind to light-up my daySomeone who really cares and has a lot of love to shareSomeone which everyone sees for us to make a wonderful pair.
During this year, from January till this seconds this minute, I feel so lonely and I back my face to the ceiling every night. Not able to has any good sleep. Sometimes I feel that my self-esteem gets very low, and my confidence just fades away from me. I asked myself why…? But I just can’t answer a simple question like this. But I’ll try to remind myself that I cant be like that today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow or in fact everyday. Yesterday I’d received my results. Triple “B” for this Semester. Next term will be my last semester and times are just rushing off every minute, every second are just very important from now on. I can’t afford to lose any of them. Every term I will just repeat the same sentence “From today onwards I will study hard and I will stay cheerful along” I know I didn’t do it. I know if I don’t do it I will not have any more chance because I am just confusing whether to further my studies after army if not then next semester will be my last one. I just miss my secondary school life a lot. I had an enjoyable time with my classmates. Long time we didn’t go outing with them too, almost one year we didn’t go out in groups. Hope to see them again.
I need a quick magic to take all this sad feelings away, set my heart freeand sunshine to light up my daysI need someone wonderful in my life and truly nicenot a person with a heart cold as ice. Typing half way, my mind suddenly just black out, doesn’t know how to continue it. Well, think its better for me to stop here. Sorry… just a boring piece again. Good night!
That Little Girl Within
There on the desk in a pretty picture framestood a little girl of ten or so, smiling.
I gaze into those eyes of yesterdayand remember the bedroom of my youth,
with the colors of sun burst yellow and white,
daisy wallpaper covering the walls.
Dolls and stuffed animals leaning againstthe pillows tossed on the bed.
On the night-stand sits a lamp,brassy and shaded in a yellow glow.
A Mickey Mouse alarm clock ticks softly.
Toys scattered on the floor,crayons, color books of every size.
Paper dolls lay on the desk, partially cut out.Clothes carelessly tossed on an over stuffed chair.
Experiments of nail polish and lip stickare scattered across the dressing table,
quickly forgotten next to the picture puzzle half done.
As I touch the soul in that pictureI am reminded that the little girl I seeis all grown up with the experiences of life behind her, approaching the autumn of her years.I look in awe at this pretty,accomplished and extraordinary childand realize that I have not changed that much,
for that little girl still resides within me.
Some of them will just thought that the problem which they faced at first, will apart them after a sleep or after a few days actually the problem are still wandering about in your mind just that you don't dare to face it.No matter what, still i will remind everyone, you and even me that "Stand up bravely and fight for your honour and you'll be able to find your GLORY ."