Thursday, November 25, 2004

Not Another Day

All I seek in my life from today onwards is a lot of love to come my way. Someone true, loyal, honest, respectful and kind to light-up my daySomeone who really cares and has a lot of love to shareSomeone which everyone sees for us to make a wonderful pair.
During this year, from January till this seconds this minute, I feel so lonely and I back my face to the ceiling every night. Not able to has any good sleep. Sometimes I feel that my self-esteem gets very low, and my confidence just fades away from me. I asked myself why…? But I just can’t answer a simple question like this. But I’ll try to remind myself that I cant be like that today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow or in fact everyday. Yesterday I’d received my results. Triple “B” for this Semester. Next term will be my last semester and times are just rushing off every minute, every second are just very important from now on. I can’t afford to lose any of them. Every term I will just repeat the same sentence “From today onwards I will study hard and I will stay cheerful along” I know I didn’t do it. I know if I don’t do it I will not have any more chance because I am just confusing whether to further my studies after army if not then next semester will be my last one. I just miss my secondary school life a lot. I had an enjoyable time with my classmates. Long time we didn’t go outing with them too, almost one year we didn’t go out in groups. Hope to see them again.
I need a quick magic to take all this sad feelings away, set my heart freeand sunshine to light up my daysI need someone wonderful in my life and truly nicenot a person with a heart cold as ice. Typing half way, my mind suddenly just black out, doesn’t know how to continue it. Well, think its better for me to stop here. Sorry… just a boring piece again. Good night!
That Little Girl Within

There on the desk in a pretty picture framestood a little girl of ten or so, smiling.
I gaze into those eyes of yesterdayand remember the bedroom of my youth,
with the colors of sun burst yellow and white,
daisy wallpaper covering the walls.
Dolls and stuffed animals leaning againstthe pillows tossed on the bed.
On the night-stand sits a lamp,brassy and shaded in a yellow glow.
A Mickey Mouse alarm clock ticks softly.
Toys scattered on the floor,crayons, color books of every size.
Paper dolls lay on the desk, partially cut out.Clothes carelessly tossed on an over stuffed chair.
Experiments of nail polish and lip stickare scattered across the dressing table,
quickly forgotten next to the picture puzzle half done.
As I touch the soul in that pictureI am reminded that the little girl I seeis all grown up with the experiences of life behind her, approaching the autumn of her years.I look in awe at this pretty,accomplished and extraordinary childand realize that I have not changed that much,
for that little girl still resides within me.
Some of them will just thought that the problem which they faced at first, will apart them after a sleep or after a few days actually the problem are still wandering about in your mind just that you don't dare to face it.No matter what, still i will remind everyone, you and even me that "Stand up bravely and fight for your honour and you'll be able to find your GLORY ."

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Title ...

Today is the 2nd day of the week and i am still falling sick.Having bad flu and asthma now and feverish for days still it didnt get any better.Didn't really enjoy my holiday from the day after my examinations are over. I knew it... i knew it will turn out the way not i've been wanting for my papers.Haiz... what can i do about it but only let bygones be bygones.Now i just hope that i can recover fast and go get a part time job. Really no mood to continue it.sorry Good nite.

They say "life must go on," and during the day that's largely true. But when the sun sets, life again comes to a jarring halt.

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Make your optimism come true.

There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be. That's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better. There are times when people disappoint you and let you down, but those are the times when you must remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions, and to keep your life focused on believing in yourself and all that you are capable of. There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life, and it is up to you to accept them. Constantly keep yourself headed in the right directions for you. It may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle you will find a stronger sense of who you are, and you will also see yourself developing into the person you have always wanted to be. Life is a journey through time, filled with many choices; each of us will experience life in our own special way. So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be, because the challenges and changes will only help you to find the dreams that you know are meant to come true for you.
We all want to make things better in our lives,
but lots of times we just don't know where or when to begin.
Sometimes we are troubled about something deep inside,
and we are afraid of dealing with our problems because we've been hurt before,
and we remember what hurts can bring.
Making things better involves changing but change isn't such a terrible thing.
Life isn't always easy.
No one ever promised that it would be.
But it can be wonderful at times, and it is up to us to make those times happen.
Where? Beginning within, When?
With the dawn of each new day.
How? Listen to your heart . . .
and it really will show you the way.
Listen to your heart for a while.You have dreams and hopes and desires.You have a purpose that is all your own-"No one else is you"
Wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature you meet a smile.Remember, to look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true!!
Good Luck for those who have examinations coming up next week or the week after next.Guess i will not come online after this week.And this will be my last update of the blog until my exams are over. Will MIss My Heaven...
"My Stairway To Heaven..."

Friday, October 08, 2004

No words can speak

Words never seem to express the deepest thoughts inside of mine.Last evening,i had a very unhappy time.My heart just shattered as i've done badly for my Satistic Test.I targeted at least an "A" or Distinction for it.HaiZz So SUcKy lo!!!For now i think getting a pass is so difficult which i think it is impossible too. I'm really totally disappointed with myself.I coming to let go of everything once again. I locked myself in my room the whole night.I blast my ears with songs and music.I think and think and think... i just feel very vexed inside that i feel like crying...After a few hours of depressions,I kept repeating to myself that "Practice makes Perfect"I must DO WELL for my coming examinations.I can't afford to do badly again.For this time i just buy a punishment from it.I know i can, and i trust i can.I can't let myself down again.This time i apologised but i promise that i can do it.In fact i will do it better!!!
When we go through our lives from day to day, we must build upon a solid foundation, the one that is unyielding to the demands and pressures of the workplace, our families, and our friends.You ask yourself what is is all about? Is it about fame, wealth, status......or to prove your more worthy? I think not! For it is love that blinds the pure...without conditions only.
It is your health, for without it you would surely have nothing.It's about loving the one person in your life.....the one which will complete your soul. It's about Gardenia's in the morning....shadows at sunset, and moonlight on an empty road.It's about your character,your heart and your desire to overcome any obstacle.It's the joy of waking to another day, regardless when you haven't have a clue as to how it will work out for the day.
Happy Angels have given us these treasures, and when we lay our heads down at night on our pillows, we should all remember these simple treasures, and thank them for everything that we have, not what we don't!The Happy Angels around us have given me a beautiful treasure, one that I will hold it in my heart forever.That is "TOMORROW".If tomorrow never comes then maybe we'll have to live in a day filled with miserable and depression once again.If you want that tomorrow to come remember, you'll have to be Happy..And Smile MOre..One more Two More and more and MORE!!!Don't wait anymore...Hurry put on a smile.!!!Nite,take care everyone.

Friday, October 01, 2004

A Question Mark ?

A question mark! ..That we finish our questions with the symbol, however, did you ever ask yourself about it? … Well I think this symbol is unique, because it is a mysterious symbol., When you try to discover something about it.. It always appears in your mind, Just like a closed box …you do not know any thing about it … Well let me tell you what a question mark means to me….
Well! When you look at the question mark symbol or shape, you can see a curved line …at the end of this line, you can see a dot, The curved line means a lot, Imagine that the curved line is your life …So you can realize what’s going through your life, It’s an unlimited journey or as I can say road … nobody knows about it, Only the Lord knows…

The journey begins or starts with your birth and ends with death. Throughout this journey, you will be able to witness many things, many mysterious… many different kind of people… many adventures… and feelings of people or even feelings of ourselves too. When I walked through this journey, I discovered something interesting in life, life is looping, which means it circle around and around. Life is just repeating and repeating the same thing over and over again. Though now or today I am free but sooner or later I will be busy again. Tests are coming back. Examinations are around the corner. Bit tired over studying. But no choice still has to study for it. Jia You!! Tomorrow I shall start studying.

I cannot believe that it had happened again. A girl from my school fell off from forth story high building. she was sitting on the railing, her phone rang. She managed to answer the call but she cant save her life. She just slipped and fell. She was bleeding profusely while waiting for the ambulance to reach. At that moment she must be very painful and so sad to see her lying on the ground and cant move much. The doctor said that she was injured too seriously and she died in the hospital four hours later. Life is so unpredictable no one can know what will happen next.

So friend do cherish every minutes, every seconds and days you have. Spend well!!! Remember Happy Angels will always be around us. No matter how badly we have fallen, try to stand up fast!! I know they can, we can, and you can do it too!!!

Smile smile (",)

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Failure means Success

Tomorrow's hopes and dreams may never die for as long as you believe in yourself and follow your heart.Kindness in your heart will guide you to accomplish many things in life and overcome all challenges, all obstacles, and love.So i will not give up and you, all of you mustn't give up so easily just because of once failure in life.Failure is just a part and parcel in life. In fact we should work harder to achieve what we can't.
Though after two weeks of hard i am feeling slightly tired over my work---Everything!!!.I told myself that i can't give up and i got to go for what i have set for myself.Never give up i told myself,always have faith in myself and i will be able to gain the greatest gift of hope and love.At last or finally i can have a short break for today.Next week i shall work hard on my revision.Though today at first i planned to go swimming but was just too tired to go.Last night i have a great time at the Changi resort though i was feeling a bit down and lonely in the first place.My mood changed immediately after i get to see the dark clouds transformed to a beautiful romantic skies filled with STARS!!! Haha..was so beautiful!!!So Starry and Shiny!!!Long time i didnt get to see the skies filled with so many stars.The last time i guess was when i was with....haiz...(,")
After so much things happened,whatever it'd happened its over and never let anyone stand in the way of persuing your dreams and wishes you have dreamt of in your life.Lets work hard for our dreams!!! Believe in yourself!!! Take care everyone.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

What a DAY

Today is saturday fast man!!!15 more minutes to sunday le!!!Next week still got two papers which i didnt really touch on it cos of so many stuff which have happened in the past few days.Guess i have to buck up le.. if not i will definitely do badly for this term.Each time i said "jia you" but i know i didn't put in my best effort de... just no motivation everything to me seems very dull...nothing special...monday i will get back my F.math result think this time god also cannot help me already sure flung de. SobZz (",)...Still i hope to get a pass for it.. aiyo dunno lehz...must be thinking why i'm so indecisive...Suddenly the word "LOVE" came to my mind again...

The meaning of love is determined differently by everyone. To me, love means you share your life and build special plans together. To work side by side and smile with pride. To love is to help and encourage with smiles and sincere words of praise, to take time to share, to listen and care in tender, affectionate ways. To love is to have someone special, one who you can always depend on to be there through the years sharing laughter and tears, as a lover and friend. To love is to make special memories of moments you love to recall of all the good things that sharing life brings.And how will you define love as ???

Well... hope next week everything will be fine.Especially my tests hope all will go smoothly..>>>with Flying colors perharps.YaWNZzz +_+ZzZz.Gd Nite my dear friends..